If you’re an artist, the darkness is always more interesting than the light… I always wanted to base my work in the dark side of things, and then find my way. You have to earn the light.
The Gods smiled on me, and I managed to secure a concert ticket for December to see one of my favourite bands in Paris. My first gig since moving to France.
Everybody Wants To Be Amazing
I’m still a freak
And like every human being that was ever born I’m unique
Things disappear but I’m still here
I’m still awake, I knew all along
If you ain’t crazy there’s something wrong
Empires rise and fall but through it all
I’m still a freak!
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented? Well, who are you not to be? As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence liberates others.
Over the past couple of years, my appreciation for the simplicity with which the world is rendered by black and white film has grown. I have exposed many a roll of b&w over the years, but more often I find myself appreciating how much quieter black and white is. Sure, the scenes can still be dramatic, but there can sometimes be a brashness to colour that I don’t seem to find as much in black and white film. It makes for a simpler, quieter world…. at least how I use it. And I guess that is the chicken meeting the egg. Is the world really that much softer of personality in black and white, or do I see and record such a world when I am in a black and white film mentality? Am I finding what I seek, or seeking what I find?
There is something to be said about how a film or a lens or a camera influences and feeds how you think, look and photograph. The technical qualities of a specific camera, or roll of black and white film aside, it is important to be aware of the mental process that is engaged when using a certain piece of equipment.
Is the world simpler and quieter in black and white, or do I make it thus because I was in a mood to go looking for it and chose the right equipment to pursue that? Yes and yes and sometimes no.
My homage to Lee Friedlander